Sunshine Mary’s done it. Roosh has, too. And it appears as though C. M. Sturges is doing something similar.
A reader is working on a guest post that I’ll put up when he’s done, but after that, I’m taking a break from blogging.
Certain aspects of blogging have always been a challenge for me, namely that I have so much running through my head at any given moment that it can be difficult to settle on any single thing. My primary focus has been Manospherish stuff, but to me, that’s just one aspect of Truth, an important but somewhat narrow part of what I’ve got to say.
I see a common thread running through modern sexual trends, economics, race, Game, politics, Christianity, rhetoric, culture, and damn near anything else. When I’m talking to people in person, this makes me pretty interesting, for I compare economic policies with spiritual laws and somehow tie it all together with The Avengers movie. Unfortunately, that’s hard to do in a blog post.
I’ve somehow still managed to remain coherent, but lately that’s been getting rougher. I start writing as soon as I get all my stuff set for the next day, and no matter how simply I think my initial topic is going to be, I’m trying to cram everything in before Starbucks kicks me out (which is already after I should have gone to bed). Sometimes I write the same post over multiple sessions, but for reasons that would take too long to explain, that doesn’t help.
As a result, although I know that a lot of you like my posts, lately they’re not up to my own standards.
Three things are missing.
First, I understand my Mission, but somehow in its current form, Alpha Is Assumed isn’t fitting into it quite as well as it should. I’m not yet sure whether I need to broaden my focus, narrow it, or change it altogether. On one hand, I’d like to get much more intensely personal regarding my life’s history (one of the weirdest you’ll encounter) and current challenges. On the other hand, I want to deal with the broader issues like how other forms of leftism relate to feminism and how to change it on a mass scale as I continue with a lot of the themes I’ve already been writing about. And there’s a ton of stuff I haven’t even touched on.
I’ve also begun writing a couple of books, and I need to figure out how to finish them while doing this. Should this blog overlap what I’m writing in those, or should I narrow things here and deal with other stuff there? Again, it’s hard for me to compartmentalize because in my mind it’s all the same thing. I’ve also gotten a couple of opportunities that relate directly to my Mission, and those are going to take some time.
I’ll figure it out, but I need some time.
Second, I’m able to read a fair amount of blogs, but I haven’t had time to read books. There’s value to quickly digesting info from disparate sources on the internet, but there’s also value to just letting my mind get absorbed in a single big idea. The reason I have so much to say myself is that I’ve spent so much time taking in what others have to say. I still do that, but recently so much of what I take in gets rehashed and spit back out here. I need to just shut up and listen for a while without urgently wondering how whatever I’m hearing will fit into my next post.
So a lot of the time I’ve been spent writing will be spent reading instead.
Third, it’s nothing major, but there are some personal things that have backed up that I need to attend to. When I’m caught up, I’m a master of time management, but I let myself get behind, and that slows me down. I’ve got to fit more into life than I do now, but that requires backing up a bit. I also have a couple of personal challenges that aren’t exactly in the way, but they’re not helping, either.
How long will it be? As long as it takes. It might be a week or two, it might be longer.
When I return, it might be the same old blog, I might change things up quite a bit. I’ve written rough drafts of posts that almost read like fiction in which I describe my nights out on the town, past relationships, and my family (one of the most dysfunctional ever despite including some truly wonderful people). I’ve also saved some straight philosophy posts, others just on religion, still others that are much like what I’ve already done.
One thing I’m considering doing are video podcasts of some sort. For whatever reason, I make more of an impact when people can see and/or hear me, so that might be something to bring here. If anybody has any technical advice on user-friendly editing software, please let me know.
For those of you who are bloggers, I’ll still be reading your stuff, and I might even comment occasionally. When I like a post I may well leave a picture of my hammer in the “like” square, and of course I’ll read and respond to comments here. I might even write posts and not put them up, so don’t be surprised if you get some belated pingbacks.
I’m also interacting over email and in other ways with some of you, and I’ll continue to do that. Each of you with whom I have some sort of correspondence I regard incredibly highly, so I’m not dropping you.
In the meantime, any prayers are welcome.
The basis for my philosophy is how Christ responded to the temptations in the desert; just about everything I think and believe derives from that. As I move forward with my own sort of ministry, it looks like I’ve got to spend some time in a metaphoric desert myself.
And just like Him, I might get a bit frazzled, but I will come stumbling back.
Thank you all.